It was Tuesday morning, the wind was heavily blowing though the sun was glaring off my skin. I was riding jeep on my way to the office, first day of work for the week (as for me at least). Things were usual until i heard myself saying “bayad po”. It was as if something is not remarkable, there is something that I’m missing. Then I remember the things i used to back when I’m still schooling, back when I used to say “bayad po,studyante”.
It’s been a month since I graduated from college. I haven’t heard much from my classmates and friends but I’m positive that they’re busy preparing for higher tier of life— career. Reminiscing my school days, I can’t help my self from comparing it to my now, to my today that I’m working and kicking ass. :D
Before, I thought being a good student with excellent grades was what life is all about. Though parties, gimicks and gala with friends have been part of my four-year stay in college, never did I let any of these stop me from finishing my degree and bringing pride to my proud parents. I believe that with all the mind wearing and weakening exams, recitations, and projects, four years will be unnoticeable and time will rapidly come to pay off all of my hardships.
Then, I felt sudden nervousness has urged my mental state while envisioning my future. In the next four years, will I reach another milestone? Maybe I will become a successful Marketer, perhaps a Marketing Manager in a Multinational company. Or maybe I’ll get rotten working on the same old things for the rest of my life. I don’t know what exactly I was feeling. I should be happy now, must be very much happy! This is what I’ve been wanting. I’m already done studying and I have the best job with great compensation. I get overwhelmed whenever I can give some penny that’ll settle utilities at home. I haven’t depend financially to my parents anymore, well not as much as I used to :D. But still somethings are bothering me, something that I don’t know. I don’t know what will I intend to strive, and I don’t know what lies ahead ..
Due to my deep thinking, I haven’t notice that the jeep already passed the building where my office is located. I quickly get off the PUV and walked back hurriedly. It’s 7:03 am and my work schedule is actually 7:00 am. I was already in the elevator when I found my self amused to the certainties.
Maybe nothing much has changed— I’m LATE as usual 